The way I see it #245

A person’s pursuit of goodness leads to greatness,
but the pursuit of greatness leads to ruin.
Pursue goodness and you will achieve great things.

- John E. Kramer
Vice president for communications, Institute for Justice.

How unfair is it….

that he cuts out fast food for two months and loses the same amount that it takes me to lose over 8 months with severe diet change & exercise?

so unfair.

so here we are, on the verge of all things great.

“Our brightest blazes are commonly kindled by unexpected sparks.”
- Samuel Johnson

“Following the path of least resistance is what makes men and rivers crooked.”
- Someone

Each day I think about “us” a little differently. From saying things like “my parent’s house” to looking at coupons to save for going shopping, it’s beginning to feel more real. I know I will become a little more nervous as “the day” approaches, but for now all I have is anticipation and dreamy ideals of this that for which we have been waiting.

So amazing that we’ll be on the same team: you + me versus the world.
That our Creator will begin to speak simultaneously (or at times seperately) to us about our lives and direction. We will become a force, a motion and rising tide more powerful than anything we mustered up alone. Balance and check in everything spirtual and eternal.

I anticipate that every ugly thing I’ve kept hidden will rise to the surface. You and I will come face to face with the broken hideous creature I am at my core. But then also, beauty greater than anything I have tried to create or define, will emerge, untainted.

I am preparing myself as much as possible for this life long journey. Can we hold hands while we walk it?

my heart is pacing and I can’t make it stop.

it’s so weird, it was like this weekend was a dream. no stress, so calm, so full of good, and rest. Up until 5 minutes ago, when I realized there was this one thing I have yet to do. All of the sudden mom’s question seem too urgent, the television too loud, the mess that’s been in my room for literally months too overwhelming.

I guess it’s called snapping. on the verge of it, but trying not to.

really it’s so aggravating because like I said this weekend was so perfect.

and then there’s you. you always had this lying beneath the surface. but now something happened in the last 3 weeks and it seems like it’s engulfed you. i don’t know if i should have done more – if i can do more. i suppose the best thing to do is pray first. pray first lauren, pray first.

tomorrow we find out if that is the apt God wants us to have. i’m totally trusting Him on this one because that’s all I can do.

myspace brings out the evil.

who knew that becoming your wife would be so beautiful and difficult? I suppose most truly beautiful things are difficult.

beautiful one i love
beautiful one i adore
beautiful one my soul must sing

tomorrow is full of things, and so is tonight. goodnight.